about life, people occasionaly do that right its not just me? ok well sometimes i wonder about people in particular, and if you are reading this and wondering where its going wonder why i have to think like this.
now i know life isnt fair, my dad is my hero and the best person he can be but he gets so stressed sometimes, that im the oldest, i get the brunt of it, and for all he does for me you know what thats fine, im an adult and im willing to take it to help him. so if anyone has ANYTHING to say about him now know in advance, fuck off. or ill break you.

ok now about other people. in general this isnt aimed at anyone because i dont believe in doing that but in the long run i have to ask that if you are reading this, why? why do you read these things, why do you even care about my thoughts and concerns, do you honestly care about me? i can only think of a few people that can HONESTLY answer yes, and that would probably be a few specific others and my girlfriend. maybe, because just the state of things right now that just piss me off.
most people dont honestly care about one another, the only honest care i can see is a mother and her child, like even married couples loose it after so long right? they might get divorced shit like that, not saying all of them turn out like that but still. honestly. so right now im confronted by... dishonesty??? no. fraud? maybe. i dont know. just basic quieries that i dont understand about. when i ask if were ok, and you dont reply. what do i take from that? if i am hoestly worried about you or something and i dont get anything back, i take it ive done something. and there's been a few people doing this to me lately not just one or two but a few. and it agrivates me because i would personally like to believe that i am one of those people who honestly tries to care about the few people that are very close to me, that excludes my family. so really.
if you care, you would make those efforts like i try, i get sometimes it just doenst work but conflict proves the working effort of time, and after time takes its toll and you are still friends or more it proves that you have patience and caring for another because you worked your way through that problem and have moved on. can we not move on?? can we not try something new if something old isnt working.

sadly this is for most of my friends that arent on here, which i guess is a good thing cause really at this point in time, what would this do anyway? oh well.

life is good though, cleaning my room. much needed. made a new friend who is hoenstly making me laugh, heaven help him haha.

miss my her. very much but hey. it wont be long now. <3

thats life right now in a nutshell. thank god tommorow is friday bitches! pce/

ps. been doodling a little. post it when i get a chance. for those who have been harassing me. ><